little miss sunshine

i decided on little miss sunshine for my christmas eve movie, a comedy that i dozed off while watching on the plane to syd. not because it's boring, but because the effect of a heavy dinner kicked in.

kudos to the directors of the movie, who managed to put across the heart warming bonding of an obviously imperfect family, a family with lacking individuals, through their bumpy journey to california for the little miss sunshine pageant. each family member portrays someone familiar around us, people whom we can identify with in our own family, our circles of friends, in church. people who aren't as lovable as you wish they could be, yet you still love them just 'cos they are the ones that made up your life, and very much part of it. if we realise, we could even relate ourselves in them, as a matter of fact, we're all not that flawless anyway. i see myself in some of them.

dwayne.
i wasn't born with a totally sheltered life, and my childhood certainly wasn't as colorful as many others. my toys and clothes were mostly pass downs. and i had to work for what i wanted as a teenager & was never spoon fed. i was so much like dwayne, the angsty kid. couldn't understand the reasons for going through a slightly less than average growing up stage. became rebellious and a difficult individualistic child with dwayne's "i ****ing hate all of you" kinda mentality.
i have great patient parents and those childhood and adolescent years taught me to appreciate the little things around me now, 'cos everything and everyone does not come by that easily.

frank.
seeking death is a freaking cowardy move, as much as the seeker would like to think that it's a job that required lotsa courage to execute. be it dying for a failed relationship, unsuccessful career, a bleak future, a terminal illness. the seeker choose to leave selfishly and abruptly, leaving a chain of grieving problems for the loved ones to settle, nothing close to a proud legacy. what could be worse than a failed suicide? then everyone around you would think that you need constant company and care, treat you like a fragile piece of china, assumes that you'll fall into depression easily, secretly feel that you're mentally unstable, or rather insane. why choose to go somewhere you're not even certain about?

there are many things in life that you would love to attempt. but the lack of confidence and the fear of failure, and the harassing little voices in your head that would sneered and jeered to stopped you from doing what you really wanted. making you feel that your dreams are stupid and irrational. you care so much about the assumptions and perceptions of the people around you that it restricted you to an invisible little box of life, all mundane, routined and safe. but that isn't what many of us really wanted. life should be about unrestricted choices, about idealistic dreams and having no fear in fulfilling them.

"He fulfills the desires of those who fear Him, He hears their cry and saves them." psalms 145:19

you gotta watch the hoovers:
http://www.foxsearchlight.com/littlemisssunshine2

happy boxing day. i can smell something good coming up in 2009. can't wait. can you smell that too?