i.observe - kinship i never understood

I used to think that homosexuality is vast in their society, only to realise that holding hands between guys is just a gesture of kinship/brotherhood that I never understood.

i.observe - follow me

follow me, if you may.

About a Boy - the book

i've recently finished reading the book - About a Boy by nick hornby, the same author who wrote High Fidelity.

there was a particular page that made my heart go funny as i read it on the train [on my zuper nook e-reader of course ;)]

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it was the part where Will (an adult) was speaking to innocent 12 year old Marcus about his perception of love, about his secret attraction to Ellie, a rebellious 14 yr old black nailed girl who was crazy about kurt cobain and suicide.

marcus: but i didn't know when i met ellie the first time that i wanted her to be my girlfriend. it took a while to develop.

will: well, that's a sign of maturity, i guess. you want ellie to be your girlfriend?

marcus: yeah. 'course

will: not just your friend?

marcus: well, i was going to ask you about that. what would you say are the main differences?

will: you're funny marcus

marcus: iknow. people keep telling me. i don't care. i just want you to answer the question

will: ok. do you want to touch her? that's got to be the first thing.

marcus: i don't know. i'm thinking about it. go on.

will: that's it

marcus: that's it? there's only one difference?

will: yeah, marcus. you have heard of sex, haven't you? it's kind of a big deal.

marcus: i know, i'm not stupid. but i can't believe there's nothing more to it. oh piss. cos i'm not sure if i wanna touch ellie or not. but i still know that i want her to be my girlfriend.

will: ok, so what things do you want to be different?

marcus: i want to be with her more. i want to be with her all the time. instead of just when i bump into her. and i want to get rid of zoe (ellie's best friend), even though i like zoe, because i want ellie to myself. and i want to tell her things first, before i tell anyone, even you or mum. and i don't want her to have another boyfriend. if i could have all those things, i wouldn't mind if i touched her or not.

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at this point, my heart melted, for marcus. simple and innocent love. don't we all want that in our lives? (for girls at least. guys are more like animals)

i switched off my ebook. and smiled at the first random stranger who gave me an eye contact. because i'm satisfied with that day's read on the train. :)

i.observe - growing old....

I don't wanna wake up. i don't wanna grow old...! :(

i.observe - mysterious flowers

solved. thank u, elmbot :D